Did I stop drinking coffee? – Personal

*A letter:

My dear readers,

The thing with writing is, it just so happens. The thing with writing passionately is, sometimes it just doesn´t work. I may have rejected my coffee page up here a (big) little bit within the previous months and I would like to share with you why.

People started asking me when there will be fresh content coming or whether there will be articles coming. I have to admit, I do feel a bit guilty given the fact that I used to share good coffee stuff quite regularly. And let me tell you, I have always enjoyed it soo so much.

IMG_0951To be honest, every few weeks I was sitting in front of my screen and intended to write an article for you – be it a review about a new spot, a fresh playlist or even an interview about a coffee entrepreneur. Some of you may wonder, has there been a shortage of good coffee places lately? Or, could it be that there are too many out there to get them in order and write lovely recommendations? Or maybe even questioned if I stopped drinking coffee at all?

My dear coffee mates,  it´s none of the three.

I moved to another country. I loved it there. I created a life there. Things went well. But also, things went not so well sometimes. I started missing my old place as in my home country. I came to visit. Still, I had my projects and certain priorities in the country abroad. At the same time, I was longing for so many things back home. I missed them. I missed my people. Then, things paid off and came to the end spurt phase abroad. I had fun. I started traveling again. I came back. Something was still missing. I moved back to my home country. I loved it there. Things went well. But also some not so well. I was sad. I was happy. I started traveling again. And the result of all of this? Precious time to figure out what works for me and what not. Precious time with people back home and abroad. Precious time for myself. And what else? The feeling of chance. I have changed as a person. So did my people. So did both places. Of course, everything changes. The world is in motion. All the time. Safety feelings come and go. Fun times come and go. Worrying times come and go. Thoughts come and go. And before you know it, you find yourself living between two worlds, between two places, within decisions, within thoughts, within worries, within joy and love and tears.

What I have learned: you simply cannot live the same life in two different places (or make them three or five). You think you can, but you just can´t. There will always be some things missing, be it, people, be it a regular place you go to, be it basic things. Every place is unique. Once you start exploring, you start adapting to a certain level. That needs time. Take the time. It is constantly evolving really. Things do you good and perhaps do you good for a lifetime. Things do you good at this very stage in life but not in the long run. Fear sometimes stops you. And that is the hardest part of all. You do something, you start realizing to be capable of doing it, it´s great, it´s tough, it´s great, it´s tough – you did it, and then? The then is uncertain. Which is terrible but so exciting at the same time. And there lies the beauty in it, I guess.

So, what about the coffee question then?
I can assure you to 100% – I certainly did not stop drinking coffee. I am having my regular two cups a day. In the morning and in the afternoon, sometimes it´s three actually. I still have this great passion for exploring new and beloved coffee gems. Actually, there is plenty I put on hold just because I had no inspirational writing minutes on my hands. Furthermore, I even have a great interview coming for you soon. This coffee page is a true gem for me. It allows me to express my passion with a bit of a personal touch ever now and then. I would not give that up. It is to a certain level a part of me. And I hope you can understand why I neglected it a bit in the past time. It just did not feel right to write. And I want to keep it that way, writing out of passion and I can feel it, the time is coming again, slowly but surely. I am excited about that and I am going to end this personal letter with a smile now. And do me a favor, please allow yourself to smile too.

Carmen X

Fun Fact: I quite enjoyed writing sooo many short sentences – probably half of them are starting with AND – just random but structured thoughts collecting really, maybe I should do that more often. AND for now, enjoy your afternoon coffee:)